“I was lost in my twenties, getting by only while bartending and waiting tables in very short and delightfully tacky orange shorts! Ten years passed in that position, I was one heck of a chicken wing connoisseur and quickly becoming one of the older girls on the job, at the ripe age of twenty-five. I wanted more from life, but without a proper college education I felt I’d never get ahead. There was also a very charming boy, whose parents didn’t think I was good enough to marry (so I thought at the time).
So, I enrolled in junior college to get a degree to make me worthy of marriage and pursued nursing, because I come from a lineage of caretakers. I naturally thought it was my calling. I barely finished the first two years and earned an associate’s degree in health science; nursing was actually not my cup of tea. I soon experienced my first real heartbreak, the kind that knocks the wind out of you and makes you question if you will ever recover. I was descending and spiraling downward fast.
Luckily, a good friend invited me to stay with her in Newport Beach, California where I could get my head back on straight. Into my car and off to California I went. It was a five-day, cross-country adventure, with my ride or die by my side, my good friend and dear angel, Kimmy. Looking back, I know she was in my life as some type of protector, I always felt safe with her, even at my weakest and most reckless times.
Nine months passed by, and I was really fitting in and adapting to the southern California lifestyle. I found my people—I have found yoga, wheatgrass, farmers markets, surfers, artist, and wind—the west coast is where I wanted to stay for life. Then, the boy called. He wanted me back and promised to marry me. I would do anything to have him, so I packed it up and went back home to Florida. What a mistake! If I could go back and tell my twenty-five year old self anything today, it would be: ‘You are worthy, you are enough, love yourself first.’…”
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